LOST TO SELFISHNESS

"This is too hard for me, I feel like such a joke you know know how I feel about you but we can't do this". Those were his words right before he left.
Three Months Ago;
The beginning... I remember the day it had all started,it ws the day I had gone for a drink with a group of friends, I remember seeing him and thinking "damn I'd like to have me a piece of that Spanish hunk" only for him to come up to me and chat me up . He was unbelievably complete smart, responsible, fit and of course handsome as fuck. We got comfortable with each other so fast it seemed like we had known each other in a former life. We went on dates, we had our first kiss and everything was going wonderful until the 3rd week of our relationship, I remember it like it was just yesterday;
Being with you feels so right he said
I smiled and then he asked me "what do you think intimacy is about?" ,
I'm not sure, sharing everything with each other I guess
I want you to be my woman
What are you talking about Julio I AM your woman
Not completely he said
what do you mean
I wanna make love to you
SILENCE , shit I've been dreading this moment
I braced myself for the task ahead and I said to him
Umm Julio there's something I've been meaning to tell you this but I wanted to wait till the time was right
Go ahead he said and I dropped the bomb I'M A VIRGIN
I know baby
You do, why didn't you say anything
I don't wanna rush you hun I'll wait till you're ready
* pheew* relieved at the thought of not having to make a decision I knew he would ask again but I didn't want to bother myself "plausible deniability" I decided
After that incident I let him get to third base to keep his mind away from wanting "it" but our rounds of passion-filled acrobatic cuninlingus and fellatio only left him with a bad case of blue balls every single time while I was always high up in cloud "19".
Seeing as the equation wasn't equal we decided to take a break from each other. But that was easier said than done we just couldn't stay away from each other and each time he left with blue balls so I decided to let him go and keep everything casual while we kept in touch through phone calls. That sort of worked well for a month or so until that drafty spring morning at about 1am we had been talking for about an hour .
I miss you Dami can I come over
I knew this would lead to nothing but trouble but I said yes all the same because I missed him more than I wanted to admit. Twenty mins later he was outside my apartment seeing him just made me melt inside , I walked up to him and hugged him. Hugging him had filled an emptiness inside me, an emptiness I didn't know existed.
Immediately we got to my room he lifted me and eased me unto the bed. He brushed his mouth over my lips "put your arms around me baby", I did as he asked as we kissed passionately. I moaned softly as he raised my top. Panic mixed with excitement I pulled my top down. Before I could stop him he had peeled my top off leaving only my shorts, he grasped my hands and placed them over my head.
"I wanna make love to you" he whispered. His hands moved to my breasts, handling them gently, tracing light, feathery circles until my nipples hardened into tiny bells. He touched each tip and waves of heat shot through me as his head dipped. He drew my nipple to his mouth sculpting it with his mouth and then drawing on it as if he were taking nourishment. Excitement spread through my body like a betrayal, burning hotter and fiercer as he began stroking the insides of my thighs. His fingers moved beneath the bands of my shorts and panties and then slid inside with a practiced touch .
"You're so tight", he whispered, withdrawing from me . He pulled my shorts and underpants down over my hips, separated my legs, and began doing something to me with his mouth that was so thrilling, I couldn't believe it was happening. At first I fought against it but my resistance was no match for his cunninlingus skills. He took control of my body , and I surrendered to him. I cried out as he brought me to an orgasm so exquisite I felt as if I were shattering into a thousand pieces .
After it was over he came up to kiss me, but I turned away. I couldn't deal with the guilt,I knew I was'nt going to let him make love to me so I pushed him away. His face grew pale as he stalked from the room but not before he said those two sentences that pierced my heart. I had lost him to my selfishness. I knew he was gone, GONE FOREVER.

RAMBLINGS of an ALTER EGO -My Nemesis: VERTICALLY CHALLENGED

RAMBLINGS of an ALTER EGO -My Nemesis: VERTICALLY CHALLENGED

ONION BULB

I won't shed a tear with this onion no I won't
I'll fight it like at the battlefront
Hurtful it might be this I know,
But I'll pass this test and this I'll show
I'll close my eyes and pretend it's clay,
And when "they" ask I'll say I'm okay
I'm almost done you see,
I didn't shed a tear I took it out on me
And Even though the cost was pain,
I cut the onion all the same

Wild horses

You were supposed to be different,you were supposed to be the green light, you were supposed to be my GO

You were supposed to be my frog prince,you were supposed to be the last red light, you were supposed to be the final whistle.

All I wanted to was to be like the wild horses throwing caution to the wind and damning the consequence instead I thought wrong, I acted blindly , I moved when I shouldn't have and I kissed the wrong frog, recklessly abandoning myself before you.

I'm wondering is this my life, it all happened so fast I should have seen it coming,I should have started running a long time ago but I guess I fell in way too deep.

After all said and done I still see that girl I want to be and I know one day I'll run with the wild horses running carefree, with the wind in my hair and nothing to fear.

Love � A riddle wrapped up in an enigma

So I saw this post and I thought wow love isn't meant for adults alone, there's around us even the tiniest embryo knows love :D
A group of 4 to 8 year-olds was asked, “What does love mean?” The answers they gave were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined.

–”When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn’t bend over and paint her toe nails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That’s love.” (Rebecca – age 8 )

–”When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth.” (Billy – age 4)

–”Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.” (Chrissy – age 6 )

–”Love is what makes you smile when you’re tired.” ( Terri – age 4 )

–”Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.” (Danny – age 7)

–”Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday” (Tina – age 7)

–”Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.” (Tommy – age 6 )

–”During my piano recital, I was on a stage and scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling! He was the only one doing that.

I wasn’t scared anymore. That’s love” (Cindy -age 8 )

–”My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don’t see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.” (Clare – Age 5)

–”Love is when mommy gives daddy the best piece of chicken.” (Elaine – age 5)

–”Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.” (Mary Ann – age 4 )

Love………… is not only made for lovers……. its also for friends who luv each other sometimes better than their lover.

RAMBLINGS of an ALTER EGO -My Nemesis: I just don't have Any Comma Sense

RAMBLINGS of an ALTER EGO -My Nemesis: I just don't have Any Comma Sense

I just don't have Any Comma Sense

I think if I had to pay for every time I used a comma, my Debit card would already be showing code red

I love using comma’s, however I truthfully have no idea where they go or where to place them. I usually just insert them wherever I take a breath in my thinking, or whenever I want to make a sentence look more esthetically attractive.

(I’m a Leo, what can I tell you?)

I mean does a comma always go after the word but or so?

But, I like it that way.

So, tell me the truth.

And does a comma always proceed the word because?

I walked across the street, because I needed to get to the other side.

Another place I’m confused about comma usage is in this sentence.

Yesterday, I found out the comma key on my computer was missing. I freaked!

Should a comma go after the word yesterday?

And do I really need to use a common in this sentence?

Happy Birthday, my friend.

Lately, I’ve been trying to notice how other writers use comma’s in their blog posts, but I still can’t find an answer because everyone seems to use comma’s differently.

I also read something online that said you can never really use too many comma’s. So, if in doubt….use them.

But, I serious sense that one day I may use up all the comma's in the world, and will have to resort to this….

Hi (comma) my name is Biola (comma) and I’m seriously thinking about taking an English course (comma) because I have no comma sense. So (comma) can someone recommend a school (comma) or I fear there will soon be a comma shortage.

So, if you could share any tips about comma usage in your comments, I would greatly appreciate it.

Thank you everyone!

P.S. Oh….and by the way, right after I wrote this post, I found an interesting picture on the Internet depicting the various positions that comma’s do the nasty.



Horny little buggers, aren’t they?

It’s no wonder I love using comma’s. :P