Solitude

Charles Bukowski wrote, "Loneliness is something I've never been bothered with because I've always had this terrible itch for solitude." It's important to know the difference between being alone and being lonely, and they're often confused. For me, being alone is something I choose, loneliness is the result of being alone, or feeling alone when I haven't chosen it, but they aren't the same, and they don't necessarily lead to one another.I love being alone, I love my solitude. I am good at being alone, it's one of the things I like most about myself. I'm proud of it. Knowing that aloneness is something I’m comfortable with makes me feel powerful and peaceful. It makes me feel like my brain is a gold mine, and I'm so lucky to have this imagination. Being alone has always felt deeply indulgent to me, like a day off or being able to buy whatever you want.
Of course, there’s a part of me that thrives on crowds and bustle and ambient noise but I am a person who needs a lot of space, not the physical sort, but the distance from others kind. This is something I'm pretty sure a few people in my life find disarming—because eventually you're supposed to stop being a solitary creature with your own space and start building a space with someone else. And then you add more people to that space. You should do this for a lot of reasons, but also...you don't REALLY want to be alone, right?
Don't get me wrong I'm not trying to be an activists for loneliness, I love the idea of companionship but I think, as with anything, there should be a balance.

Playing the Minimalist

Minimalism is a tool that can assist you in finding freedom. Freedom from fear. Freedom from worry. Freedom from guilt. Freedom from depression. Freedom from the trappings of the consumer culture we’ve built our lives around. Real freedom.That doesn’t mean there’s anything inherently wrong with owning material possessions. Today’s problem seems to be the meaning we assign to our stuff. We tend to give too much meaning to our things, often forsaking our health, our relationships, our passions, our personal growth, and our desire to contribute beyond ourselves. Want to own a car or a house? Great, get it! Want to have a career? If these things are important to you, then that’s wonderful. Minimalism simply allows you to make these decisions more consciously, more deliberately.

Am I boring you ? Hold on don't leave just yet, there's reason for the paragraph above. A lot of times if we are not forced to let go of something we keep dragging years of mental and physical baggage behind us. At some point that baggage becomes so unbearably heavy that we just decide to stop moving forward and start living in the past.We stop having new goals and dreams. We stop meeting new people. We stop trying new things. We stop learning. But, ironically, we still keep buying and acquiring more physical clutter to fill our closets (speaking from experience).
Of course, on the other hand if you throw away everything you love and enjoy, then suddenly you lose your personality. Frankly speaking, you cease to know yourself then.
Sometime last year I had realized I had to let go of some things because (not to sound cliche) I needed to find myself-not that the journey ever ends IMO. I had two choices: to hold on to my past, complain, and be completely miserable or let go of everything that was no longer relevant and start a new life while still holding on to my authentic self. I noticed letting go of negative thoughts was one of the hardest things to do. Apparently it's only normal since our brain is hard-wired into noticing and holding on to negative events five times more effectively than positive ones. This phenomenon is called “negativity bias.”However simply focusing on positive events does the trick.Letting go is not as hard as it seems. Every little thing that you let go of today makes room for something new and amazing. I'm sure it's obvious which path I chose, I became the minimalist.

I'm back!

HELLO! Sorry I've been away from this place. I don't even know why. I'm not even sure what happened. But I think at some point I felt detached...my interests had changed so much that I felt like it would affect my writing.
This post is just full of rambles, I'm sorry.
The main point that I wanted to make is that... I've missed this site.I've been spending a lot of time doing other things except writing and maybe it's time for me to return, maybe it's time for me to start writing again. I really miss writing.
So yeah, I guess that's it.

It's nice to be back :)